There are moments that are tougher than others. One day last week there was a moment that hit me, and it was something simple but it brought reality and dispair together into an uncomfortable moment.
It was the tread of Kyle's shoes. They were unused and in perfect condition. There is no way that any boys shoes should have perfect tread on their shoes within 5 minutes of getting them. As we have seen Kyle's mobility continue to diminish, he doesn't walk anymore. He has gotten very good at using his wheelchair and can wheel himself around the house with great ease but that isn't much solice.
How does one find contentment and peace in the midst of this? Sometimes it isn't the big things that are tough but the little things, the small reminders.
As hard as it is for us and physically on Kyle. He never stops or complains. This week we had a hardwood floor laid (which is a huge help for Kyle in his wheelchair). Kyle insisted on being in the middle of it. Our friend Dustin who was working on the floor, gave Kyle the gun to nail the floor in and so for almost half an hour Kyle with his limited strength helped nail the floor down.
Kyle makes it much easier to feel contented and peaceful because he still enjoys himself,and doesn't allow his disability to ruin his life.
It is easy for me to focus on the difficult, but that isn't the way Kyle sees life or the world. If it is tough he just grits his teeth and does it anyway.
We have so many reminders of love from those who care about us and the special moments Kyle has, our new hardwood floor is the latest reminder.
Ben, I am glad to see you blogging again. I always enjoy the. Perspective you share on situations. This is tough. We think so much of you and Jill and how you've walked with Kyle
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